the power of tsunami.. 

aftermath.. 

how small we are...

It was a beautiful Sunday morning,and I was selfishly still laying on the bed when the phone rang.My mother was speaking full with emotion to someone on the other line and I woke up at once to find out what the commotion was all about…she simply said the chair was shaking and some people ran downstairs as they feared for their safety.All we could think about at the moment was it was a ‘mild’ earthquake. That was nine in the morning.
There was no news on television so we kept on thinking it was nothing big.By noon it was reported over 30 people were dead in Penang.And from there the number started to rise as if it was the stock market. And by evening it has gotten to thousands…thousands of lives lost ..by a single predator..and it wasn’t a bomb or the normally echoed ‘terror’ attack it was simply nature…it was Tsunami.
An earthquake,the fourth biggest one in the world…did not cause the collapse of buildings instead it was manifested in the form of 5 meters high tidal wave.Whose fault was it that thousands of lives were lost? When it appears it could have been prevented.Why wasn’t there security alerts on beaches, and residents along the shores? Even though I am not a meteorologist but at least it took three hours after the quake before tsunami reached our shores..but where was the alert? Probably its time to wake up and not take things for granted especially for a country that has always been free of earth quake, typhoon and other disasters…
Apart from being thankful to Allah S.W.T that I wasn’t at the beach that morning , all I could do for those perished is convey Al-Fatihah,may Allah bless their souls.Aameen..
And for those alive the least we could do is think why did all this happen?There are certainly reasons behind it lets not turn a blind eye.Most importantly it comes to show how vulnerable we humans are on this earth actually compared to whatever it is we have vainly lived upon.This earth and everything living in it belongs to Allah S.W.T,and will one day eventually return to The Creator Himself….

trust...

Today my honesty was questioned…I guess I never did blame the person who did,because that person had every reason to do so.But it made me think how far can one trust another person?As naïve as I was,I use to trust everyone..i really did.And some of my friends told me they could not understand how I do it.And some even told me its ridiculous and im bound to get myself hurt one day.But so far puttting the highest trust on friends have not cost me anything…This is because I choose to trust them and everything else becomes easier.I spare myself from unnecessary doubts that often are untrue.Yes, true, I’ve been lied to before even by my close friend and it wasn’t an easy situation to findout especially from someone else.But at the end of the day I never regret one moment trusting her 100%.She probably had every reason to have lied and I cant demand an explanation until she is ready to tell me.So as far as trusting someone goes I think it totally depends on ourself.If we are certain to put that hight trust on someone..we should also be certain not to blame ourself when that trust is backfired on us…

being a 'doctor'...

What is being a doctor all about? I’ve heard more than often people asking me to forget about the glam of holding the job as a doctor.Time and time again people keep reminding me, especially doctors themselves that being a doctor is no money making job!And now and again I roll my eyes at the thought. I never chose medicine because of the money it may or may not bring to me in future…instead I chose it because I wanted to. But today the reason became more than clear of why I did. Medicine is a field that I believe could shape into a person that is not only full with knowledge but also able to apply it in such a wonderful way.Today Dar Chan,the CEO of Island hospital was more than kind to spare an hour of his precious time during our visit there to explain to us what does he think about the medical profession.And he had only one thing to say about it..’being a doctor is all about being able to think logically..’And he said armed with knowledge and our five senses we are prepared to become a great doctor.The biggest difference of being a doctor rather than other professional line is that doctors need to deal with human beings who feel pain.While an engineer might endure a large amount of loss due to his carelessness in building some parts of a machine…a doctor need to face the agony of pain in his patients and worst still even death. And they MUST be able to live with this throughout their career;and that I believe has made all the difference.
During my first day of attachment even though I didn’t get to see many patients,I was mainly attached at the pharmacy department and their efficiency in handling all the medicines indeed impressed me.And the best part of all was the visit to the childrens ward..and of course the part when I sneaked into a pediatricians’ room ,Dr Dan:P.His room was the most talked about one among the staff nurses because it was filled with so many teddy bears and colourful toys..so I couldn’t resist not seing it..and after I took a tour inside..i don’t mind being a sick child and to walk into his room ove rand over again J…

Friendship…should there be the question of who I should call a friend?

What is a friend?Since I was small I have always had a perception a friend is someone who is always with you..who cares for you..makes you happy…laughs with you..but lately experience have forced me to reevaluate my perception towards friendship…a new definition have silently slipped in ..should I ever judge a friend? I feel happy that I have accumulated so many friends along this short journey of my life..but how many are really my true friends? I know if I’m in trouble so many people will be there to help me…and if I’m sad there is more than one shoulder for me to cry on..but that merely isn’t enough to build a true friendship..is it? According to a friend a true friend is not just someone who praises you but also the one who have the nerves to correct if you’re wrong.But I’m not sure I can do that to many of my friends.I’m not saying that I’m perfect,as anyone else I tend to make mistakes,and I would like to be corrected so that I don’t repeat it.But could I do it?Wouldnt that mean I am judging my friends ? I’ve always lived with the perception that one should never choose a friend…that is just lame discrimination. Whoever a person is… is entirely their right. In order to accept someone as a friend does not depend on how much we can stand of them..but how much we can accept them as a whole person..most importantly as there are. And if there are some things they do that we don’t agree upon, what we can do is tell them. As honest as we can ...deep from our heart…

Honesty the best policy?

Why is it so hard to be honest when someone asks you to do them a favour? Sometimes there are things we are compelled to do just because we cant break someone’s heart eventhough we know that’s not we want to do.But at the end of the day we still don’t feel good because we had to ignore something that we wanted. All this could be avoided with mere honesty when asked the favour..but then again how can we break the heart of someone that we care about.By right at the moment we were asked the favour we should’ve contemplated without hesitation if we honestly cared about the person…

do u see the twin tower ? 

the enchanted night time at Ridzuan 

blue sky.. 

from the eyes of others we learn.. 

sunset... 

Responsibility

This morning I promised my sister that we would go to the Penang hill.But as it turned out there were some problems I was unable to overcome.When I told her that we had to cancel our trip I could clearly see the look of disappointment on her face.Then it hit me that lately I’ve caused her that look more than I ever wanted to.Since I got back much of her needs I’ve failed to attend to.Perhaps I was too selfish dwelling myself in my own luxury with friends that I forgot I have a responsibility as a sister.When my elder sister was here things were different, she was mostly in charge of everything :and plus she was good at it.I feel I have failed..of course im not saying im going to give up,but I feel the responsibility left for me is just overwhelming and perhaps I should be more sensitive towards my sis.I don’t know what she thinks of me but I hope she understands I never meant to fail her on purpose…I guess being the big sister is quite a challenge and one must be committed to take the responsibility…after all the most important and sweetest bond of all is the one of families..without them we are no body…

Are you ready to go down the isles of marriage?

Is not as if there is no girl of the same age of mine have never got married before,but when a close friend hinted it to me this morning,it made me thinking ….It seems there has been a proposal for her,and she told me her parents and families wanted her to consider it.My first reaction was..what!!!you’ve got to be kidding me..you don’t want to ruin your life by committing into marriage this early..bla bla bla…but then ,I stopped and thought for a while,who am I to judge.My journey in life has just begun,and if I might add with the blessing of Allah without any hardship.Things I’ve endured thought me many things,yet many I haven’t learned.And each and everyone have their own route in life,some end up getting married early some never do…whatever it is Allah knows best what's best for his creation and he sends us guidance.So if it was meant to be for anyone to be married in my age,I assume it is probably a tough responsibility and they probably are strong enough people to face it.But if I were to be given a choice….i think I’ll skip..:))for the time being….

Pesta…pesta..jom pesta??:)

Who would’ve thought…me..being thrown in the air with only a belt striped against my chest…:)and no its not mary go round!it was the one and only ‘top gun’..anyone who knows me will probably be thinking ,she’s kidding..she wouldn’t have..ever…but hey I did!:P and as scary as it was it feels great..(but of course it would’ve been much better if I minus all the screams..but I couldn’t help it it was involuntary action..;))the first three rounds I didn’t dare to open my eyes…but after that I was thinking,I couldn’t probably miss looking at all those people looking at us from down there..and I did,and lucky me there was a crescent moon that night,I was this close to itJ.I don’t know what is it with moon and stars but there are just so magical,especially blanketed by the dark night.well as for those who haven’t been to this year’s pesta I would suggest that you do…:)

life...

Life,
A journey..never ending
Of cries and laughter,
Joy and sorrow,
Love,hope ,dreams…
Scars of the past couldn’t be a better teacher,
If only I could see
Through the eyes
And the pains
Of others not as lucky as me
Loosing their family,their homes,friends,freedom
Yet,they still stand up:for what is theirs
How selfish of me,
To have trapped myself in this world of my own,
How foolish..
For not trying harder when I could
Im hoping all this and more
Will open my eyes
To the true meaning of life!

kemana hati hendak dibawa?

Ke mana hati hendak dibawa?
Jika segala harapan dan impian hancur musnah,
Jiwa muda ini tidak pernah bersalah…
..pernah punya cita-cita,
namun kini dia kekurangan…
liku-liku hidup menjadi cabaran.

Ke mana hati hendak dibawa ?
Jika segala harapan dan impian hancur musnah,
Ibu dan ayah sudah tiada,
Kini keseorangan…kesepian..
Tanpa hala tujuan.

Ke mana hati hendak dibawa?
Sekiranya dunia kini medan peperangan..keganasan,
Kedamaian kekal impian,
Adilkah jika ada yang menderita sebegitu rupa..
Dan ada yang masih bergembira?

Ke mana hati hendak dibawa?
Jika tidak setitik pun air mata kita untuk mereka..
Ke mana hati hendak dibawa?
Jika tiada yang berani bangkit menghadapi penindasan..
Benarkah kita ini manusia?